Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Sunday, December 06, 2009
I have nothing to comment on how exhausted I am or how bad I felt when I have to scarify my holiday, long planed with my childhood friend.
The experiences I undergone for the past month is like a new lessons of about everything I tried.
Part of it was, I finally realise how depressing can an interpreter’s life be.
I deeply felt the saying of Tuan Haji always remind us in the class; Interpreter has the highest suicide rate.
And from interpreter friend: there are times when you really want to dig a hole and plant yourself.
Being an interpreter, you have got to have thick skin.
Yes I have it. And still, I thought I almost die suffocated in the air of embarrass.
You may not understand….
Interpreter is a lonely job….
And that’s over, I’ll be better. So….what are things that bother me so much…
That’s not about that, what is this?
Dear God, I ask for a peaceful mind.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Were you all been thought like that in your course at university?
No...what kind of accent do I have?
Not Malaysian accent...
At least my lecturer will be proud of me, I guess...
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Today I am super EmO, I blame myself as a cancerian.
Some one in the office has met some tragedy in life.
Which affected my mood so dramatically.
Email was sent out as his house being
The father was in comma.
And he was being attacked and broke his arm and wrist.
As I mention before, my life as an interpreter might not be long.
Today Sam has shorten my pain.
The client would have to engage other interpreters for 21 nov.
And this means there will be no opportunity for me.
Still can't get over the blue.
Hate that I am such an emotional freak.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Jog like less than 15 mins, I felt as if I am going to faint; wonder how can I survive the Penang Marathon though its only Fun Run- 10KM duh.
Bath and groomed, pick up Reis at Tiara Duta, head to KLCC for lunch at Sakae, everything was fine until we left and window shop at Parkson, as this ass itch me went into the fitting room to try out a pair of shorts, I left my hand phone on the chair. When I realize that about 5 mins later, it was too late. It was no longer there. So then I lost my hand phone.
Suppose to meet up Kevin for movie and dinner treat. Plan still go on but it gets a little bit complicated as I have to contact him via public phone booth which was placed in quite a hidden area in Sunway Pyramid.
So we did meet up in the end, watch the meatball, 3D animation-my treat. T.G.I sirloin steak and lamb chop, his. I am planning to bring him to food foundry next time.
Muscle are still in slight pain, but really have to boost my stamina from now, if not Kevin can really see me passing out on the bridge when he is doing his half marathon while I am on my Fun Run.
Assigned my little sister to get me a 2nd hand phone, budget below RM200. I am really running out of this, yesterday was the pay day, I am close to dry. Haih…Hope we can still live in the world where hand phone is still not a necessity.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
At Last something great happen.
So the lesson of the day is you have to endure, until the end….
There is never NEVER.
I was late (~got late/ LAID?~) to work today as I thought my schedule is on the 12-9 instead of 11-8.
So that was just the beginning,
I answered 3 calls, and it took me 1hr and 15 mins.
Oh My F**king DUT………
My AHT was like 1500sec…
The rest of the day I was just chasing my AHT and
hoping it is now at least on the edge of 300.
Calls after call on a Sunday…not good
until I end my shift, then only the IDLE came.
Anyway, on my last call I finally rent out the 1st car of the day.
Then I go to 4th floor for a puffer,,,
The phone rang and so goes the long lost miss Susi…
“ Denise, are you free, next Saturday?”
“I am getting marry…”
Me. “ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…..!”
Congratulation my dear, 1st best friend’s wedding that I am attending.
Hope this is the beginning of all GOOD things…
Bless is the baby….
Trip to Penang, accommodation settled, might have grand hotel stay with cheap price too…
How about a BBQ and drinking session?
I am LoVing LiFe…..
LoG from office
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tonight I heard of 2 Dog stories, which touch my heart abit, just a wee abit.
Wesley is Cher Ru's dog, I met him once, he is white and fluffy, not very big.
I am not too good in describing dog, not my type though.
According to Cher Ru, Wesley can really understand human's emotion, at least he understand his master.
When she was sad and crying in front of him, he will lick her tears dry.
Don't you think that is sweet?
Anyway I still won't let a dog come near me, don't even think of licking me, please.
Kar Sang's 小白 left the family tonight, about a few hours ago.
Though I never meet the dog, but apparently they have share a lot of memory together.
This dog must have been a loyal dog and had bring so much fun to the family once.
Tonight he'll sleep in peace. and I hope that he'll ascend to heaven.
Though I can't really comprehend the relationship between human and dog.
but I can truly understand the hardship of losing a family member.
Pray for Wesley long life so to unceasingly entertain my friend when she is sad, and I wasn't around for dinner.
Pray for 小白 to rest in peace, and Kar Sang to overcome the emotion very soon.
how to LoVe a Dog
Sunday, October 18, 2009
but that's not the point and again I miss the mark...
Lately I heard a few friends have lost their parents...
I can feel the pain,
even though I am just glancing at the picture, reading the line...
thinking of that can kill me...
I tear in my heart every single time...
I know you must have heard about 10 thousand times from your friends, your love one asking you to be STRONG and TOUGH
Dear friend, I'm here to tell you, you have aLL the reasons to be not strong,
to be weak and cry all night, cry after you waking up from a dream of seeing them,
cry whenever you heard the word s/he said to you once,
cry whenever you walk past the memory lane...
Cry whenever you imagine they will not appear in your wedding portrait,
they will not be there to witness your future...
You have all the reason...
So you do not need pretend to be tough,
you need LoVe and care...
I will say TIME will cure the pain...though it'll take very long...
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Thursday, October 01, 2009
以赛亚书 26:9a 夜间我心中羡慕你。我里面的灵切切寻求你。
Friday, September 25, 2009
It was quite a big piece of it, beige-ish, with green and black pattern.
I do not have much memory with that rug.
Lately I am planning to re furnish my room,
trying to remove the King size bed my parents got it when they first get married.
The mattress was badly wet last few months as the burglar broke the roof and follow by the downpour next day.
So I was thinking to get a rug or nice carpet to fill the long un expose area under the bed.
Past Wednesday, I went to IKEA with Cher Ru, wanting to check out the prices for the furniture and rug.
Oh My God the rug was so dear that I can in fact get a queen size mattress,
suddenly this old piece of my dad's rug flash through my mind.
After I went home, I tried to search in to the cabinet, and can't seems to locate the rug.
I ask mummy, she can't really remember either we gave it to Auntie Lyna (dad's sis) or whoever and in the end like its given to some else. But its definitely not at home now.
I called grandma today, hoping to track the long lost rug. Mama said its not at their home.
I call Rachel, and Rachel barely can recall, but she was saying something like it was abandon in the old house in Bidor or was thrown some where...
I email Auntie Lyna,
Do you remember that my dad has a rug like beige and green color one?
- Ya ., Where is it now?
Maybe throw already, haih...
U still remember that ka?
When did he bought it?
- Hand made from his ex girlfriend
sure boh, that one quite big a piece wei..
- why throw it away it took 1 year to finish and I am the designer
My heart felt a little tear when I read this, and it's shrinking smaller and smaller...
I hope I can find back this piece of His-Story.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
I am not really sure, but again I am quite certain,
They are people here just to make your day grey.
Ever since I work in a call center,
I am trained to be numb with all the emotions one should have,
When they shoot you with swear word,
They yell at you
They claimed that you yell at them
You being threaten
You have caller crying and shouting in the other end.
You are just be fine tuned
To be better in this place
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Early morning at 7sm, I am at my workstation attempting to post an entry from here.
I have never use this tool to post blog by email.
Blogger might have been that thoughtful, for people like me who actually have limited access to the internet as the proxy setting here in the office.
I am here for about 4 months to come, still never intent to break the rule, well, intent is not so right,
Perhaps I should use the word successfully break.
Let's see if this work…
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
As the reason given I will not be able to commit entirely if I wanted to continue my life as an interpreter.
The key word here is "IF".
I still can recall the other day when I quote Sam saying
So then I did said
" I realize, me always delaying my plan to print name card suddenly became a blessed thing.
Guess I can't stay here that long, I have to let go before I risk my reputation in this field."
After that few days, I have been doing a few groups, turn out to be that I am still doing fine.
Is just that I do not have faith in myself, not anymore, not even before.
I am constantly doubt with my ability.
I am just trying to gather some opinion here,
Don't you think so who ever is good in what ever field, ya they might be really good and qualified in that area, at the same time they are as well...
Oh..oh...oh...oh...Ooh...Yes, I am a Great Pretender...
Like me, I am probably good but not the best (not as good as Sam), I'm just good at pretending that I am good, I won some of the client trust, but how long can this be real?
Some of the researcher told me, they dig their fucking head into the designing of the questionnaire, preparing for or IHV or FGD, recruitment of respondent, liaise with client and people like me that some time screw them up, compile and analyze the feedback, finalize with report writing (best part), and what the so call DIRECTOR do, is to present the outcome to the client, by all the bluffy,fluffy, flowery words...They are not even there at the FGD, ass hole kan...
So, this is life...
Never stop to strive to become a good pretender.
LoVe ur Job
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I was out with CheRu and Sandra last night,
instead of planning our wedding, CheR and I were actually visualizing our funeral.
She wants a happy funeral, music play from her ipod, including Coldplay Yellow.
White roses, white coffin (not necessarily to be dear),
and she demands for alcohol. ( don't talk to alcoholic)
Ya, mine as well in the other hand, doesn't really matter the color of my coffin,
flower to me is kinda a vain, but yeah for a function like this, you should at least get me some nice white lily, even jasmine will be good, I like the fragrance (while fresh).
what I am looking forward will be the content of D day.
If possible play some jazz,
I want all the people I care and care about me there...
Get together and talk about me...
Tell the rest about how am I am to you...
I make CheRu in my list if we'll still be close for the next 10 fine years...
Jasmine is totally can't run from this...
I think Chang Chew will have a lot of thing to tell...( my hair style evolution )
In fact, you may register your name here.
Let me know what will you remember me the most...
What will you miss the most out of me...my laughter...I know...
Share with me, all the delightful moment I might has forgotten...
I will be sitting at the corner, listening and enjoying all this flash back...
looking forward pulak
Not only I do not want to get involve too much in your life and vice verse.
I am afraid I know you too much and too transparent to me and vice verse.
I am really disturb emotionally...
I am too coward to get to know one further...
I always got the wrong one...
not even to take the 1st step
Changes as well, I don't know why I always relate changes to something negative.
Which should not be.
I will be most sad if I see someone change as he or she force too...
They weren't that calculative before...
They weren't that protective before...
This was not what I thought he or she is...
Suddenly I hope everything remain unknown to me...
Do not ever reveal this evil side of the world to me...
I really rather die in beautiful lies...
I am too fragile to take all the facts...
Like the kissing fish is in FACTs fighting when they kiss...
wtf, can't they just keep this to themselves...
Shallow...you can say so...
or unable to take the stress of the reality...
yes whatever you may claim...
my objective is to live a happy life...
Do not flood me with truth that is not pleasant to ear, eyes, health and mind...
Over the blast of a new entry...wow!
Monday, August 31, 2009
What you might not know is that,
( me personally was unaware of as well)
This is actually the same as how I looked like 11 years ago,
when I was in my primary 6.
Thank for Chang Chew to remind us about that.
Good to have old friend around.
I LoVe you guys
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
As I am already fond of the number 7, I already like this day. As much as I like it, just as I have it embroiled in my heart now.
Four years ago, around this time...
Father might has just breath his last breath...
In this memorable day, I wish he would be proud of what I am doing today.
aLx said he will...
I choose to believe him...
I think I need a HuG.
I LoVe you, papa
Monday, August 24, 2009
May God bLess you and the baby.
Stand by you
Saturday, August 22, 2009
现场自弹自唱了Olivia Ong 的 如烟，燕姿的祝你开心（家辉作品），栋梁的平静曲(家辉作品）.
Made in Malaysia
Thursday, August 20, 2009
He invented this term when we were still in campus, leaving live as a full time freelancer( part time student).
I just got another offer from a job I applied like months back in jobstreet.
When I said another one...meaning said I had one before this.
OmG, is that the answer of my prayer?
This indicate how important to build your network from now on and continuously, though so, quality network is as well one essential key to success. As written somewhere I read in the small self development hand book Sze Sze gave me, "you only need to get through 4 persons to know the people you are looking for".
Samuel Chew: 在这行，你不需要名片，越是有名片，臭名传得越快
Then I realize, me always delaying my plan to print name card suddenly became a blessed thing.
Guess I can't stay here that long, I have to let go before I risk my reputation in this field.
Bye bye $.
Monday, July 20, 2009
After listening to your story, I have a very strong feeling towards this phrase,
"You are not aLone" or " I'm not alone".
As Chinese proverbs said, "家家有本难念的经". I do believe that it's all the hardship we undergone that made us who we are today. We should be grateful and glad that we were brought up this way with all the life experiences others might not have.
We are healthy, capable to earn a living, not so descendant. Our background has leave a print on us. Look at you and me, we are not too bad, and indeed, we were very good person, with bright future, living happier life than many others.
When ever I met a weirdo, I will try not to put any judgment but think that, they might have come from an indifferent family background or have a significant past. This, I'll show empathy.
We all have a past, please not be ashamed of it.
Be grateful that your mum and dad has nurture you this big, thus though you are not loaded, at least you have story to tell your kids, and please bring them up well in the future.
aLL the best friend.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
My skin became extremely dehydrated to needle poking pain. I have put on masks, and still...
I wore a mask to work yesterday, people in the office was like, why you so kia si...
Ah ping yiu a, I kia lu si la...
I got bad flu wei...
M3: Minta maaf, boleh bagi tissue lagi?
lack of Vit C (which define by Sensei)
First of all, I should address my heart felt apologize, as I’d disappeared for some 4 long weeks without any notice before hand, nor in between.
Yes, modem at home was broken on a thunder rainy day. Well, the problem is yet to be fix till now.
So, Mc D was one of the solution or Jun Ng’s Digi Broadband in the office.
It was my 23rd birthday last Saturday; the least expecting surprise party came his way. I am not a fan of those, as I thought my family is secretly planning for a BBQ party as I wished but end up blown due to tight budget.
I went to work at 6am and come back at around 3.30pm, I was so tired, I lie flat on the bed till 7pm, and then Kuan drag me to Carefour, thus to spare time for Rachel and the Bidor gang to do their job. We were in the hypermarket for like hour or more.
On the way home, as we were near the home gate, I saw a Pizza Hut delivery man left. I was thinking, so our dinner tonight is certain now. Rac ordered pizza. Wait a minute here, the house is all dark, nobody was there. How can Rac order pizza and left the house empty? I should have stopped the pizza man before he left.
I open the gate, the the metal and wooden door, just when I confirmed that the alarm is not set…
“Happy Birthday to you….” Cha is holding the Chocolate Indulgence with candle from Bidor as it written, and the representative from 5 Raya 2003, Chang Chew the planner, Wah sifut, Sook Teng, Shyan Ling and Chiew. Oh my God. I never thought it was them. Thank you so much, people. It was almost the best surprise party I ever have. Life is so good with friends around.
p/s: Though the cake was a little bit cacat, but I really appreciate the LoVe and friendship behind it.