Thursday, December 17, 2009

Never get enough

I know I am extremely pathetic
ask me...

where do I find LoVe.
How can I feel LoVe exist?

RomCom never fail me...
Living in a virtual world

too chicken and lack of luck
=DeN=
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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

身体亮红灯

身体亮红灯在抗议,长期鼻敏感,喷嚏鼻涕不断不在话下;昨晚更是颈项肩膀紧蹦,转动不得。放工后去诊所打了一支止痛针,拿了两天病假。大概是上天也要我好好的休息,今天的口译工作不怎么顺利,问题出在哪儿我也不懂。客户就是不满意,叫我明天不必再来。已经不是第一次了,说麻木也不然,心里还是有点儿不是滋味。虽然Sam每回维护我说不是我的错,客户要求过分等我心里也许该好过些,可是再想深一层,可能是自己真的做的不够好,有某某真的厉害,才被比下去了。常常让Sam难做,自己也过意不去,每每给他添麻烦来着。咳,朋友。。。翻译员的苦,焉人之能了。

要阿Q也可以很阿Q 天父或许怜悯我太操劳,心疼了想我稍息。停下脚步,花点时间疼惜自己。更新博客,回顾这几个月,总结2009,开始计划新的一年。那一天算算123日正是我入行1周年纪念日,这一天我会惦记在心,从没想过可以在这圈子可以活存下来。本只以为混几口饭吃,没想到这一做就是一个年头了。甜酸苦,紧张,兴奋,压力,无助,空白,情绪起伏上与下,不是三言两语就能道尽。

那天去理发,理发师Ken点出了头顶的秃,脱掉的头发,岂是常人所能了解的心痛。那一刻我差点儿没有放声哭出来。

=DeN=
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Sunday, December 06, 2009

BOC

Haven’t been writing for quite some time. If you want to read my word now, perhaps it will sound more negative. I have been working so hard the past month. I have got a balance pay back. I am grateful about that.

I have nothing to comment on how exhausted I am or how bad I felt when I have to scarify my holiday, long planed with my childhood friend.

The experiences I undergone for the past month is like a new lessons of about everything I tried.
Part of it was, I finally realise how depressing can an interpreter’s life be.
I deeply felt the saying of Tuan Haji always remind us in the class; Interpreter has the highest suicide rate.
And from interpreter friend: there are times when you really want to dig a hole and plant yourself.
Being an interpreter, you have got to have thick skin.
Yes I have it. And still, I thought I almost die suffocated in the air of embarrass.
You may not understand….
Interpreter is a lonely job….

And that’s over, I’ll be better. So….what are things that bother me so much…
That’s not about that, what is this?
Dear God, I ask for a peaceful mind.

=DeN=
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Friday, November 20, 2009

Where did you pick up this accent?
huh?
Were you all been thought like that in your course at university?
No...what kind of accent do I have?
US accent.
Huh No...
Not Malaysian accent...
herrrr...o_0"

At least my lecturer will be proud of me, I guess...

act cool
=DeN=
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Blue from the 16th floor

Today I am super EmO, I blame myself as a cancerian.

Some one in the office has met some tragedy in life.

Which affected my mood so dramatically.

Email was sent out as his house being

Broken in.

The father was in comma.

And he was being attacked and broke his arm and wrist.


As I mention before, my life as an interpreter might not be long.

Today Sam has shorten my pain.
The client would have to engage other interpreters for 21 nov.

And this means there will be no opportunity for me.

Still can't get over the blue.

Hate that I am such an emotional freak.

=DeN=

2679

Wednesday, November 11, 2009




你是我依靠
一直都在
=DeN=
2655

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Updates

Early morning yesterday I woke up and collect my car at the car wash across the road, drive to the park.

Jog like less than 15 mins, I felt as if I am going to faint; wonder how can I survive the Penang Marathon though its only Fun Run- 10KM duh.

Bath and groomed, pick up Reis at Tiara Duta, head to KLCC for lunch at Sakae, everything was fine until we left and window shop at Parkson, as this ass itch me went into the fitting room to try out a pair of shorts, I left my hand phone on the chair. When I realize that about 5 mins later, it was too late. It was no longer there. So then I lost my hand phone.

Suppose to meet up Kevin for movie and dinner treat. Plan still go on but it gets a little bit complicated as I have to contact him via public phone booth which was placed in quite a hidden area in Sunway Pyramid.

So we did meet up in the end, watch the meatball, 3D animation-my treat. T.G.I sirloin steak and lamb chop, his. I am planning to bring him to food foundry next time.

Muscle are still in slight pain, but really have to boost my stamina from now, if not Kevin can really see me passing out on the bridge when he is doing his half marathon while I am on my Fun Run.

Assigned my little sister to get me a 2nd hand phone, budget below RM200. I am really running out of this, yesterday was the pay day, I am close to dry. Haih…Hope we can still live in the world where hand phone is still not a necessity.

=DeN=

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

tada

At Last something great happen.
So the lesson of the day is you have to endure, until the end….
There is never NEVER.

I was late (~got late/ LAID?~) to work today as I thought my schedule is on the 12-9 instead of 11-8.
So that was just the beginning,
I answered 3 calls, and it took me 1hr and 15 mins.
Oh My F**king DUT………
My AHT was like 1500sec…
The rest of the day I was just chasing my AHT and
hoping it is now at least on the edge of 300.
Calls after call on a Sunday…not good
until I end my shift, then only the IDLE came.

Anyway, on my last call I finally rent out the 1st car of the day.
Then I go to 4th floor for a puffer,,,
The phone rang and so goes the long lost miss Susi…
“ Denise, are you free, next Saturday?”
“I am getting marry…”
Me. “ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…..!”

Congratulation my dear, 1st best friend’s wedding that I am attending.
Hope this is the beginning of all GOOD things…
Bless is the baby….

Trip to Penang, accommodation settled, might have grand hotel stay with cheap price too…
How about a BBQ and drinking session?
Hmmmm…

I am LoVing LiFe…..

LoG from office
=DeN=

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Thursday, October 22, 2009

Corperate Wear Day

I must have missed a breath of fresh air in the office yesterday...
Should have check in to check out what a scene it has been...
Wish I was there, I am a very corporate wear person...
I am

错过的总是美丽
=DeN=
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

stiLL not an animal LoVer

I am never DoG person, to be frank never an animal person.
Tonight I heard of 2 Dog stories, which touch my heart abit, just a wee abit.

Wesley is Cher Ru's dog, I met him once, he is white and fluffy, not very big.
I am not too good in describing dog, not my type though.
According to Cher Ru, Wesley can really understand human's emotion, at least he understand his master.
When she was sad and crying in front of him, he will lick her tears dry.
Don't you think that is sweet?
Anyway I still won't let a dog come near me, don't even think of licking me, please.

Kar Sang's 小白 left the family tonight, about a few hours ago.
Though I never meet the dog, but apparently they have share a lot of memory together.
This dog must have been a loyal dog and had bring so much fun to the family once.
Tonight he'll sleep in peace. and I hope that he'll ascend to heaven.
Though I can't really comprehend the relationship between human and dog.
but I can truly understand the hardship of losing a family member.

Pray for Wesley long life so to unceasingly entertain my friend when she is sad, and I wasn't around for dinner.
Pray for 小白 to rest in peace, and Kar Sang to overcome the emotion very soon.

how to LoVe a Dog
=DeN=

Sunday, October 18, 2009

如果你译,

我不是一定要你回來,只是當又一個人看海,回頭才發現你不在,留下我迂迴的徘徊...

我不是一定要你回來,只是當又把回憶翻開,除了你之外的 空白,還有誰能來教我愛...

佩恩想念他父亲时在听这段曲,
我庆幸爸爸不曾爱海,看海没有让我太想他。

想念
=DeN=

Dear friend

In fact, my wish has come true...
but that's not the point and again I miss the mark...
Anyway...
Lately I heard a few friends have lost their parents...
I can feel the pain,
even though I am just glancing at the picture, reading the line...

thinking of that can kill me...
I tear in my heart every single time...

I know you must have heard about 10 thousand times from your friends, your love one asking you to be STRONG and TOUGH
Dear friend, I'm here to tell you, you have aLL the reasons to be not strong,
to be weak and cry all night, cry after you waking up from a dream of seeing them,
cry whenever you heard the word s/he said to you once,
cry whenever you walk past the memory lane...

Cry whenever you imagine they will not appear in your wedding portrait,
they will not be there to witness your future...

You have all the reason...

So you do not need pretend to be tough,
you need LoVe and care...

I will say TIME will cure the pain...though it'll take very long...
Take Care...

in memory
=DeN=

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Wishing for a rainy OFF day,
sipping tea in front of the window,
writing...

=DeN=

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

心灵的保养

放工后为了避开车龙,决定呆在公司一会儿。
闲晃之际发现同事Illyas正在阅读摄影杂志,两人就谈起来,后来还一块mamak去了。
他学院时期念旅游,时常去旅行,开始爱好摄影市最近的事.
虽说摄影并非平民百姓能负担的嗜好,可是总比花钱吸大麻好.
说着说着, 他竟然问我说,你有去过露营吗?

我知道我的开头很缠脚布,改不了细节重点化的表达。

他想说,
人们注重外表,肉眼看得见的我们。为了身体健康,你去健身室做健身,你照顾饮食。
那心灵呢?他也属于我们的一部分。
城市人尤其没有时间照顾心灵的感受。

每天每夜,看的听的做的, 统统都那么急促匆忙,除了鼻子以外,眼睛耳朵双手甚至双脚还有心灵都喘着气。动态的城市,汽车,捷运,行人,来来往往。

有时间应该到瀑布,森林等接近大自然,体验一下地上最基本的享受。
树木的绿色,是使平静的颜色,多看绿色及静态的生物,流水,蚂蚁漫步。。。
有助中和心灵的不平衡。腾出一点时间,给心灵做一些保养,哪怕是打坐,冥想甚至不想,都可让身心的负能量有机会释放。

三不无时来个回归大自然的疗程,奖励自己长时间的埋头苦干,舒缓城市生活紧绷的情绪。
生活愉快点,就算没有快乐点,也会比较中性,至少不会极端。
收集过量的负能恐必有朝一日会物极生悲哉。

快乐生活笔记
=DeN=

Thursday, October 01, 2009

准时

准时


以赛亚书 26:9a 夜间我心中羡慕你。我里面的灵切切寻求你。


这个世界以迟到为时髦。人们为了显示自己重要而故意迟到。因为这表示别人不得不等他们。仆人是那些早到的人。他们等待别人。你觉得你比别人更重要吗?还是你有仆人的心?你是想然神等你还是你等神?

“我等候耶和华,我的心等候。我也仰望他的话。”【诗篇 130:5】


“次日早晨,天未亮的时候,耶稣起来,到旷野地方去,在那里祷告。”马可福音 1:35】

一个有仆人之心的人一听到神的命令就立即行动。“我急忙遵守你的命令,并不迟延。”【诗篇 119:60】看一看你是不是殷勤地寻求神的命令,在哪些方面你也许延迟遵行。


=DeN=

Friday, September 25, 2009

hidden story

When I was young, I remember that my father has a rug,
It was quite a big piece of it, beige-ish, with green and black pattern.
I do not have much memory with that rug.

Lately I am planning to re furnish my room,
trying to remove the King size bed my parents got it when they first get married.
The mattress was badly wet last few months as the burglar broke the roof and follow by the downpour next day.
So I was thinking to get a rug or nice carpet to fill the long un expose area under the bed.
Past Wednesday, I went to IKEA with Cher Ru, wanting to check out the prices for the furniture and rug.
Oh My God the rug was so dear that I can in fact get a queen size mattress,
suddenly this old piece of my dad's rug flash through my mind.

After I went home, I tried to search in to the cabinet, and can't seems to locate the rug.
I ask mummy, she can't really remember either we gave it to Auntie Lyna (dad's sis) or whoever and in the end like its given to some else. But its definitely not at home now.

I called grandma today, hoping to track the long lost rug. Mama said its not at their home.

I call Rachel, and Rachel barely can recall, but she was saying something like it was abandon in the old house in Bidor or was thrown some where...

I email Auntie Lyna,

姑姐,

Do you remember that my dad has a rug like beige and green color one?





  • Ya ., Where is it now?

Maybe throw already, haih...
U still remember that ka?
When did he bought it?

  • Hand made from his ex girlfriend


sure boh, that one quite big a piece wei..

  • why throw it away it took 1 year to finish and I am the designer

My heart felt a little tear when I read this, and it's shrinking smaller and smaller...
I hope I can find back this piece of His-Story.

trace
=DeN=

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Oxford Mini Thesaurus

Don v. put on, get dressed in, dress(yourself) in, get into, slip into/ on, change into

When u feel like making people's day misarable

I am not really sure, but again I am quite certain,

They are people here just to make your day grey.

Ever since I work in a call center,

I am trained to be numb with all the emotions one should have,

When they shoot you with swear word,

They yell at you

Or

They claimed that you yell at them

You being threaten

You have caller crying and shouting in the other end.

You are just be fine tuned

To be better in this place

w/out empathy

=DeN=

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

My first attempt

Early morning at 7sm, I am at my workstation attempting to post an entry from here.
I have never use this tool to post blog by email.
Blogger might have been that thoughtful, for people like me who actually have limited access to the internet as the proxy setting here in the office.

I am here for about 4 months to come, still never intent to break the rule, well, intent is not so right,
Perhaps I should use the word successfully break.
Anyway…
Let's see if this work…

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Pretender

I think I just turn down a job of the marketing research company.
As the reason given I will not be able to commit entirely if I wanted to continue my life as an interpreter.
The key word here is "IF".
I still can recall the other day when I quote Sam saying
" 在这行,你不需要名片,越是有名片,臭名传得越快"
So then I did said
" I realize, me always delaying my plan to print name card suddenly became a blessed thing.
Guess I can't stay here that long, I have to let go before I risk my reputation in this field."
After that few days, I have been doing a few groups, turn out to be that I am still doing fine.
Is just that I do not have faith in myself, not anymore, not even before.
I am constantly doubt with my ability.

I am just trying to gather some opinion here,
Don't you think so who ever is good in what ever field, ya they might be really good and qualified in that area, at the same time they are as well...
Oh..oh...oh...oh...Ooh...Yes, I am a Great Pretender...

Like me, I am probably good but not the best (not as good as Sam), I'm just good at pretending that I am good, I won some of the client trust, but how long can this be real?
Vain...vain..vain...

Some of the researcher told me, they dig their fucking head into the designing of the questionnaire, preparing for or IHV or FGD, recruitment of respondent, liaise with client and people like me that some time screw them up, compile and analyze the feedback, finalize with report writing (best part), and what the so call DIRECTOR do, is to present the outcome to the client, by all the bluffy,fluffy, flowery words...They are not even there at the FGD, ass hole kan...

So, this is life...
Never stop to strive to become a good pretender.

LoVe ur Job
=DeN=

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Funeral

Have you ever been planing yours?
I was out with CheRu and Sandra last night,
instead of planning our wedding, CheR and I were actually visualizing our funeral.

She wants a happy funeral, music play from her ipod, including Coldplay Yellow.
White roses, white coffin (not necessarily to be dear),
and she demands for alcohol. ( don't talk to alcoholic)

Ya, mine as well in the other hand, doesn't really matter the color of my coffin,
flower to me is kinda a vain, but yeah for a function like this, you should at least get me some nice white lily, even jasmine will be good, I like the fragrance (while fresh).
what I am looking forward will be the content of D day.
If possible play some jazz,
I want all the people I care and care about me there...
Get together and talk about me...
Tell the rest about how am I am to you...
I make CheRu in my list if we'll still be close for the next 10 fine years...
Jasmine is totally can't run from this...
I think Chang Chew will have a lot of thing to tell...( my hair style evolution )
In fact, you may register your name here.
Let me know what will you remember me the most...

What will you miss the most out of me...my laughter...I know...
Share with me, all the delightful moment I might has forgotten...
I will be sitting at the corner, listening and enjoying all this flash back...

looking forward pulak
=DeN=

Disturbed

I understand the ground of me not to add everyone who requested to befriended Facebook is actually a wise move, its a mutual thing.
Not only I do not want to get involve too much in your life and vice verse.
I am afraid I know you too much and too transparent to me and vice verse.

I am really disturb emotionally...
I am too coward to get to know one further...
I always got the wrong one...

not even to take the 1st step
=DeN=

truth

Truth is always ugly and hurtful.
Changes as well, I don't know why I always relate changes to something negative.
Which should not be.
I will be most sad if I see someone change as he or she force too...
They weren't that calculative before...
They weren't that protective before...
or
This was not what I thought he or she is...
ya...
Suddenly I hope everything remain unknown to me...
Do not ever reveal this evil side of the world to me...
I really rather die in beautiful lies...
I am too fragile to take all the facts...
Like the kissing fish is in FACTs fighting when they kiss...
wtf, can't they just keep this to themselves...
Shallow...you can say so...
or unable to take the stress of the reality...
yes whatever you may claim...
my objective is to live a happy life...
That's all,
Do not flood me with truth that is not pleasant to ear, eyes, health and mind...

Over the blast of a new entry...wow!
=DeN=

Monday, August 31, 2009

My hair

Recently I got a hair cut, you all knew it right.
What you might not know is that,
( me personally was unaware of as well)

This is actually the same as how I looked like 11 years ago,
when I was in my primary 6.
Thank for Chang Chew to remind us about that.
Good to have old friend around.

I LoVe you guys
=DeN=

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

One of the Chienese Valentine

According to lunar calender, today is the 7th of the 7th month, which we acknowledge it as 七夕, I would said what a romantic word. Today is one of the few Chinese Valentine Day, apart from the last day of Chinese New Year, Chap Gor Mei.

As I am already fond of the number 7, I already like this day. As much as I like it, just as I have it embroiled in my heart now.

Four years ago, around this time...
Father might has just breath his last breath...

In this memorable day, I wish he would be proud of what I am doing today.
aLx said he will...
I choose to believe him...

I think I need a HuG.

I LoVe you, papa
=DeN=

Monday, August 24, 2009

The excitement of a Kei Ma

She decided to keep the baby. As one of her best friend, I choose not to be a rational friend. I am excited to be one of the baby's many races Kei Ma. I just want to be a supportive friend. I LoVe you, and will always do...
May God bLess you and the baby.


Stand by you
=DeN=

Saturday, August 22, 2009

本地音乐

本地音乐越来越活跃,才子才女百出。
最近一届的娱协奖,办的有声有有色,看得自己特别感动。(看了好几遍

下班驾车回家的路上,听见988的studioV 现场演唱节目。
今天的表演嘉宾的美声实力创作男歌手,伍家辉。
配合这个下午的气氛感觉,灰凉的雨天加上他凄美的歌声,
主持人说他擅长写及演绎那些唱得让人很痛得歌。
不择可否, 虽然我愿意-经典
现场自弹自唱了Olivia Ong 的 如烟,燕姿的祝你开心(家辉作品),栋梁的平静曲(家辉作品).
听了他唱现场,顿觉该效仿好友妙凌出钱出力支持本地创作。

除了伍家辉,也想向大家推荐Manhand, 大马第一支以广东话为主流的饶舌乐队.
要多多支持哦!

Made in Malaysia
=DeN=

男人的用处

男人的用处之一:
发生车祸时,男人可以站出来,替你“讲数”。
你大可以一言不发,呆在一旁, 看他讲道理。
然后上车后,他有感而发的说:"幸亏今天有个男人在车上."
我也这般想,要是我一人,在黑漆漆的晚上,繁忙的交通圈旁,
可能我已经把全副身家掏出来,赔给那个锡克人叔叔了。

谢谢你撒姆尔
=DeN=

AleXis@The Garden



Tiramisu
B4 the interpreting assignment
=DeN=

Thursday, August 20, 2009

JoB MaGneT

This was sort of a lingo between Syl and we the group.
He invented this term when we were still in campus, leaving live as a full time freelancer( part time student).
I just got another offer from a job I applied like months back in jobstreet.
When I said another one...meaning said I had one before this.

OmG, is that the answer of my prayer?
=DeN=

名人名句

Theresa Goh: "人"到用时方恨少

This indicate how important to build your network from now on and continuously, though so, quality network is as well one essential key to success. As written somewhere I read in the small self development hand book Sze Sze gave me, "you only need to get through 4 persons to know the people you are looking for".

Samuel Chew: 在这行,你不需要名片,越是有名片,臭名传得越快
Then I realize, me always delaying my plan to print name card suddenly became a blessed thing.
Guess I can't stay here that long, I have to let go before I risk my reputation in this field.
Bye bye $.


Stressed-DeStressed
=DeN=

Monday, July 20, 2009

You are not aLone

Dear J nG
After listening to your story, I have a very strong feeling towards this phrase,
"You are not aLone" or " I'm not alone".

As Chinese proverbs said, "家家有本难念的经". I do believe that it's all the hardship we undergone that made us who we are today. We should be grateful and glad that we were brought up this way with all the life experiences others might not have.

We are healthy, capable to earn a living, not so descendant. Our background has leave a print on us. Look at you and me, we are not too bad, and indeed, we were very good person, with bright future, living happier life than many others.

When ever I met a weirdo, I will try not to put any judgment but think that, they might have come from an indifferent family background or have a significant past. This, I'll show empathy.
We all have a past, please not be ashamed of it.

Be grateful that your mum and dad has nurture you this big, thus though you are not loaded, at least you have story to tell your kids, and please bring them up well in the future.

aLL the best friend.
=DeN=

Saturday, July 18, 2009

JeRuBu

烟霾笼罩的天空,流不停的鼻水
讨厌不熟悉的老麦,
想念皇后广场的星巴克

定了机票,8月9号,回槟城。
亚航早班机,6.55am出发7.45am到达。
没有机场LiMo,可我有御用飞车接送。



忘了点歌给婉绫
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I was in BaD fLu

Since last Sunday's trip to Batu Caves, I have never stop sneezing and blowing my nose. Excessive fluid running all over my nasal tract. Its must have been the haze in PJ and KL area.

My skin became extremely dehydrated to needle poking pain. I have put on masks, and still...

I wore a mask to work yesterday, people in the office was like, why you so kia si...
Ah ping yiu a, I kia lu si la...
I got bad flu wei...

at McD:
M3: Minta maaf, boleh bagi tissue lagi?

lack of Vit C (which define by Sensei)
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Happy Birthday

First of all, I should address my heart felt apologize, as I’d disappeared for some 4 long weeks without any notice before hand, nor in between.

Yes, modem at home was broken on a thunder rainy day. Well, the problem is yet to be fix till now.

So, Mc D was one of the solution or Jun Ng’s Digi Broadband in the office.

It was my 23rd birthday last Saturday; the least expecting surprise party came his way. I am not a fan of those, as I thought my family is secretly planning for a BBQ party as I wished but end up blown due to tight budget.

I went to work at 6am and come back at around 3.30pm, I was so tired, I lie flat on the bed till 7pm, and then Kuan drag me to Carefour, thus to spare time for Rachel and the Bidor gang to do their job. We were in the hypermarket for like hour or more.

On the way home, as we were near the home gate, I saw a Pizza Hut delivery man left. I was thinking, so our dinner tonight is certain now. Rac ordered pizza. Wait a minute here, the house is all dark, nobody was there. How can Rac order pizza and left the house empty? I should have stopped the pizza man before he left.

I open the gate, the the metal and wooden door, just when I confirmed that the alarm is not set…

“Happy Birthday to you….” Cha is holding the Chocolate Indulgence with candle from Bidor as it written, and the representative from 5 Raya 2003, Chang Chew the planner, Wah sifut, Sook Teng, Shyan Ling and Chiew. Oh my God. I never thought it was them. Thank you so much, people. It was almost the best surprise party I ever have. Life is so good with friends around.


p/s: Though the cake was a little bit cacat, but I really appreciate the LoVe and friendship behind it.

LoVe yaLL

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