身体亮红灯

身体亮红灯在抗议，长期鼻敏感，喷嚏鼻涕不断不在话下；昨晚更是颈项肩膀紧蹦，转动不得。放工后去诊所打了一支止痛针，拿了两天病假。大概是上天也要我好好的休息，今天的口译工作不怎么顺利，问题出在哪儿我也不懂。客户就是不满意，叫我明天不必再来。已经不是第一次了，说麻木也不然，心里还是有点儿不是滋味。虽然Sam每回维护我说不是我的错，客户要求过分等…我心里也许该好过些，可是再想深一层，可能是自己真的做的不够好，有某某真的厉害，才被比下去了。常常让Sam难做，自己也过意不去，每每给他添麻烦来着。咳，朋友。。。翻译员的苦，焉人之能了。

要阿Q也可以很阿Q， 天父或许怜悯我太操劳，心疼了想我稍息。停下脚步，花点时间疼惜自己。更新博客，回顾这几个月，总结2009，开始计划新的一年。那一天算算12月3日正是我入行1周年纪念日，这一天我会惦记在心，从没想过可以在这圈子可以活存下来。本只以为混几口饭吃，没想到这一做就是一个年头了。甜酸苦，紧张，兴奋，压力，无助，空白，情绪起伏上与下，不是三言两语就能道尽。

那天去理发，理发师Ken点出了头顶的秃，脱掉的头发，岂是常人所能了解的心痛。那一刻我差点儿没有放声哭出来。

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2768

BOC

Haven’t been writing for quite some time. If you want to read my word now, perhaps it will sound more negative. I have been working so hard the past month. I have got a balance pay back. I am grateful about that.

I have nothing to comment on how exhausted I am or how bad I felt when I have to scarify my holiday, long planed with my childhood friend.

The experiences I undergone for the past month is like a new lessons of about everything I tried.
Part of it was, I finally realise how depressing can an interpreter’s life be.
I deeply felt the saying of Tuan Haji always remind us in the class; Interpreter has the highest suicide rate.
And from interpreter friend: there are times when you really want to dig a hole and plant yourself.
Being an interpreter, you have got to have thick skin.
Yes I have it. And still, I thought I almost die suffocated in the air of embarrass.
You may not understand….
Interpreter is a lonely job….

And that’s over, I’ll be better. So….what are things that bother me so much…
That’s not about that, what is this?
Dear God, I ask for a peaceful mind.

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2731

Where did you pick up this accent?
huh?
Were you all been thought like that in your course at university?
No...what kind of accent do I have?
US accent.
Huh No...
Not Malaysian accent...
herrrr...o_0"

At least my lecturer will be proud of me, I guess...

act cool
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2701

Pretender

I think I just turn down a job of the marketing research company.
As the reason given I will not be able to commit entirely if I wanted to continue my life as an interpreter.
The key word here is "IF".
I still can recall the other day when I quote Sam saying
" 在这行，你不需要名片，越是有名片，臭名传得越快"
So then I did said
" I realize, me always delaying my plan to print name card suddenly became a blessed thing.
Guess I can't stay here that long, I have to let go before I risk my reputation in this field."
After that few days, I have been doing a few groups, turn out to be that I am still doing fine.
Is just that I do not have faith in myself, not anymore, not even before.
I am constantly doubt with my ability.

I am just trying to gather some opinion here,
Don't you think so who ever is good in what ever field, ya they might be really good and qualified in that area, at the same time they are as well...
Oh..oh...oh...oh...Ooh...Yes, I am a Great Pretender...

Like me, I am probably good but not the best (not as good as Sam), I'm just good at pretending that I am good, I won some of the client trust, but how long can this be real?
Vain...vain..vain...

Some of the researcher told me, they dig their fucking head into the designing of the questionnaire, preparing for or IHV or FGD, recruitment of respondent, liaise with client and people like me that some time screw them up, compile and analyze the feedback, finalize with report writing (best part), and what the so call DIRECTOR do, is to present the outcome to the client, by all the bluffy,fluffy, flowery words...They are not even there at the FGD, ass hole kan...

So, this is life...
Never stop to strive to become a good pretender.

LoVe ur Job
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名人名句

Theresa Goh: "人"到用时方恨少

This indicate how important to build your network from now on and continuously, though so, quality network is as well one essential key to success. As written somewhere I read in the small self development hand book Sze Sze gave me, "you only need to get through 4 persons to know the people you are looking for".

Samuel Chew: 在这行，你不需要名片，越是有名片，臭名传得越快
Then I realize, me always delaying my plan to print name card suddenly became a blessed thing.
Guess I can't stay here that long, I have to let go before I risk my reputation in this field.
Bye bye $.


Stressed-DeStressed
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Finally.

I finally finished my translation, like almost finalize the whole series.
All left is just editing, and translate the damn poem.
You think become a translator is a piece of cake, come on...
you want to take a dare?
Oh, the etiquette of a translator just hit my head.
I can't reveal any of the material.
But truly truly I tell you, it's not easy.

In doing translation, you require more discipline ( which appeal to me very challenging) and more knowledge, in performing the job. And most of all, procrastination, which I really have to fight with myself about this.
At times, I think a translator job are more challenging then an interpreter.
But there are some funny moment doing interpreting too.
You will never expect to interpret 女头家 the drama's title and 任达华 the actor cum spoken person for Canon, in to English.
Out of a sudden, you really need to "pick up for live"-执生。
Now I found out that 女头家 is call The Iron Lady, which I was told by a pillar under Bangsar Lrt Station.
But the Canon spoke person's name still can't come to mind now.

Anyway I'd got the files all sent, I am Free-er now.
Not totally but, ya, 1 task down.

Hot Night
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