Rainy day I’ll miss you
In moonlight I’ll see you
And I wonder if love comes by
There are times when I cry
You cheer up my whole life
Then I wonder if love comes by
True, false… I really can’t sort
Falling deep down so slowly but real
In love, that’s not what my will
I just want you to stay by my side
…all long night
Hold me not or I’ll leave
Let go me, it’s too much
Solitude me, leave me alone
Turn back times, hold back tears
Take deep breath, put grin on
There is always better tomorrow
Peers, love…I think now I sorted
Falling deep down to you seem fool
In love, I don’t want it all
I believe that I’ll live my life
all by myself my way.
I compose almost all the song, and it was like few weeks or months back.
Looking, reading and singing this recall me about things that happen to me at that moment.
Sometimes I can’t really distinguish between love and friends. I have a lot of platonic relationship. Indeed part of the song is actually my own story, at least its part of my feeling and some thought.
So many I hold myself back when ever people tend to treat me good, I think I just afraid, I am fear for falling to anybody. I am exactly a chicken. It happen so many times that I thought that was love, and then I stand still and dare not to move forward, I dare not to take the risk of losing, may be a friend. I dare not to face differences in life on the way we moving to the future.
This should have flesh back to the incident few years back that I put in all, and was hurt badly. Ever since then I become a very protective and defensive girl, but at the same time I wish that someone will somehow appears in my boring life to stimulate some different elements. I was such a spear and shield (proverb in Chinese which mean I am go against my own self.)
Let me explain the lyrics stanza by stanza
Stanza I
Rainy day I’ll miss you
In moonlight I’ll see you
And I wonder if love comes by
Obviously I telling that I will all the time missing the person whoever he is. Where I’ll miss him in the in the day and night, that even I’ll see him in the moonlight. But the problem is I am still not sure that is that kind of feeling call love? A question I always doubt.
Stanza II
There are times when I cry
You cheer up my whole life
Then I wonder if love comes by
Whenever I am feeling down, I’ll cry to him and he’ll eventually make me smile and bright up the day. So again I wonder is this love? Or simply care out of friendship? I doubt that again.
Stanza III
True, false… I really can’t sort
Falling deep down so slowly but real
In love, that’s not what my will
I just want you to stay by my side
…all long night
And so that I can’t distinguish the trueness of the feeling of love, but gradually I found that I am actually falling into it, gradually I addicted to the good he did to me. But I keep on telling myself I don’t want to fall in love to anybody, this kind of relationship is not what I want. I just want that there will be always someone beside me, what a selfish thought.
Stanza IV
Hold me not or I’ll leave
Let go me, it’s too much
Solitude me, leave me alone
I can’t help but to beg him to not treating me good anymore, don’t get any closer or I’ll leave, and his good being too much till I can’t take it anymore. I wanted to isolate myself, I wish I could live alone. Can I?
Stanza V
Turn back times, hold back tears
Take deep breath, put grin on
There is always better tomorrow
How I hope that time can turn back to when we do not know each other or just to the moment I realize that there is something wrong so that I can hold myself on time. Since I do not have the authority to do so, I have to bold back my tears, take a deep breath, in and out, put on a faking stupid, but confident looking smile and walk on my way, cause we always optimistically believe that there is always a better day ahead, await.
Stanza VI
Peers, love…I think now I sorted
Falling deep down to you seem fool
In love, I don’t want it all
I believe that I’ll live my life
all by myself my way.
Every now and then I remind myself to stay in sensible, that that was only friend, and friendship always last longer. I laugh at myself for being such a fool to almost bury a life long relationship. I don’t really need anybody to supply me anything or stimulate any element into my life. Cause present seems so good to me, and I still not ready for any changes.
Mine seems to be too sentimental but anyway Susan had made Mr. Jafre a funny comedy one. Good job everybody.
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