...当世界只剩下你和我...
..我们竟因分秒之差..
...错过了晚餐...
..你说是命运的安排..
...我只好等待...

学习
=DeN=

什么时候我变成了别人口中的
...你的宝贝000...

I always think that I am your baby, you have make me M3 today,
most of the achievement I have got is your work.
You gave me opportunities.
You assist me.
You gave me support and care.
You treat me like a baby.
That you nurtured me well and equip me to face the horror world.
You said you will always be around.
But each time when you tell me that I'll be one day on my own.
I felt so sad as if like you are going to dump me soon.
I do not want to be miss Independent.

=DeN=

How bad can one experience be to visit doctor at General Hospital?

How bad was it to be mistaken as a pregnant lady with the white missy dress you wore for 2 years?

Emotion are most affected by how we think
but not how the subjective matter that happen around us.

change ur mind set
=DeN=

malfunction nose

Tonight I realized that I am handicap when my nose blocked.
By losing the sense of smell, I can't differentiate my shampoo and body shampoo.
Usually I can recognized my body shampoo fragrance cause it was so nice.
Tonight I squeeze it out and shampoo my hair happily,
but it felt extremely rough on my hair, so I thought it was because I dyed my hair.
Never mind, than I put more conditioner later.

Done with my hair, and wanted to reach my hand to the body shampoo bottle,
why is it the same bottle?
Okay fine, lets do the shampoo again,
tomorrow.

heard it was good.
=DeN=

So many times I gave up.
I tell myself, I'll leave, I have done all I could.
And if I am not, I'll throw my tantrum right in to your face,
say that I don't care anymore.
It's your life friend, no matter how much one would like to help you,
you are still the key of your own heart.

So many times I feel like slapping you to wake you up from all
those bs philosophy you have got to defense.
So many times I feel like bombing you with sarcastic word.
I hold back, I speak to myself, those line.
I digest it, I ask God, and It shouldn't be the way.

It should be mere LoVe.
Thus I am still here, sitting next to you.

I LoVe Friend, please LoVe yourself too
=DeN=

It's your StoRy,
so
......

thx CippY *deep thought*
=DeN=

When dad passed away, it was like 5 years ago,
I wrote a lot about him, about how much I miss him.
Every time when I read back those words, they never fail to make me tears.

And a year passed, I was preparing for the student exchange program,
It never seems so easy, not as what you'll said after you see me return.
That time round, I decided not to write any discourage people or word in my blog.
Every time when I felt weak, I prayed, I prayed for financial aid, I pray for faith,
I pray for God to lead me through, as He'll have a plan for me.
So you'll never find a post about my journey of preparing my student exchange program.

And years passed again...
As you grow, you know better how to control the emotions.
Being emotionless is extremely sad,
at least you ought to know who or what will worth a sleepless night.

You know what friend, I am glad that you are experiencing the feeling now.
Cause it will accomplish you as a human, help you along your life.
Experience make you Grow.

hows the coffee?
=DeN=

2010 wishlist-for this moment

I have mentioned about things that I want to do which might or might not involve alot of $$$

Here are some of the thing I am planing to get...
could be since last year...
Could be something I saw today at Leisure Mall...
As a good friend said- I am not good in prioritize...

1. Install Air-Cond in my room ( like it has been discuss since forever )
2. A proper bed with mattress ( Lagi Beyond Forever )
3. HiFI set (before Jas claimed she wnats for Bday, it's in my mind )
4. NetBook
5. BlackBerry
6. SunGlasses
7. Watches (did I use plural)
8. Starbucks Tumbler
9. mirror
10. *** (so reluctant to tell)

I am glad that 2 things actually happen which I think it's really God Works on Me.
First Aunt Lyna sent me the BSF class email...So I am planning to register myself in, so to complete my Bible study.
Secondly, as I prayed to God after the Sunday Service, He showed the path...
So I join the 领诗队. I always adore them, leading the praising on the stage...
Leading the service with prayer...
Learning to serve GoD...Like God...

Cantonese braVo
=DeN=

BOC

Haven’t been writing for quite some time. If you want to read my word now, perhaps it will sound more negative. I have been working so hard the past month. I have got a balance pay back. I am grateful about that.

I have nothing to comment on how exhausted I am or how bad I felt when I have to scarify my holiday, long planed with my childhood friend.

The experiences I undergone for the past month is like a new lessons of about everything I tried.
Part of it was, I finally realise how depressing can an interpreter’s life be.
I deeply felt the saying of Tuan Haji always remind us in the class; Interpreter has the highest suicide rate.
And from interpreter friend: there are times when you really want to dig a hole and plant yourself.
Being an interpreter, you have got to have thick skin.
Yes I have it. And still, I thought I almost die suffocated in the air of embarrass.
You may not understand….
Interpreter is a lonely job….

And that’s over, I’ll be better. So….what are things that bother me so much…
That’s not about that, what is this?
Dear God, I ask for a peaceful mind.

=DeN=
2731

Blue from the 16th floor

Today I am super EmO, I blame myself as a cancerian.

Some one in the office has met some tragedy in life.

Which affected my mood so dramatically.

Email was sent out as his house being

Broken in.

The father was in comma.

And he was being attacked and broke his arm and wrist.

As I mention before, my life as an interpreter might not be long.

Today Sam has shorten my pain.
The client would have to engage other interpreters for 21 nov.

And this means there will be no opportunity for me.

Still can't get over the blue.

Hate that I am such an emotional freak.

=DeN=

2679

Updates

Early morning yesterday I woke up and collect my car at the car wash across the road, drive to the park.

Jog like less than 15 mins, I felt as if I am going to faint; wonder how can I survive the Penang Marathon though its only Fun Run- 10KM duh.

Bath and groomed, pick up Reis at Tiara Duta, head to KLCC for lunch at Sakae, everything was fine until we left and window shop at Parkson, as this ass itch me went into the fitting room to try out a pair of shorts, I left my hand phone on the chair. When I realize that about 5 mins later, it was too late. It was no longer there. So then I lost my hand phone.

Suppose to meet up Kevin for movie and dinner treat. Plan still go on but it gets a little bit complicated as I have to contact him via public phone booth which was placed in quite a hidden area in Sunway Pyramid.

So we did meet up in the end, watch the meatball, 3D animation-my treat. T.G.I sirloin steak and lamb chop, his. I am planning to bring him to food foundry next time.

Muscle are still in slight pain, but really have to boost my stamina from now, if not Kevin can really see me passing out on the bridge when he is doing his half marathon while I am on my Fun Run.

Assigned my little sister to get me a 2^nd hand phone, budget below RM200. I am really running out of this, yesterday was the pay day, I am close to dry. Haih…Hope we can still live in the world where hand phone is still not a necessity.

=DeN=

2620

stiLL not an animal LoVer

I am never DoG person, to be frank never an animal person.
Tonight I heard of 2 Dog stories, which touch my heart abit, just a wee abit.

Wesley is Cher Ru's dog, I met him once, he is white and fluffy, not very big.
I am not too good in describing dog, not my type though.
According to Cher Ru, Wesley can really understand human's emotion, at least he understand his master.
When she was sad and crying in front of him, he will lick her tears dry.
Don't you think that is sweet?
Anyway I still won't let a dog come near me, don't even think of licking me, please.

Kar Sang's 小白 left the family tonight, about a few hours ago.
Though I never meet the dog, but apparently they have share a lot of memory together.
This dog must have been a loyal dog and had bring so much fun to the family once.
Tonight he'll sleep in peace. and I hope that he'll ascend to heaven.
Though I can't really comprehend the relationship between human and dog.
but I can truly understand the hardship of losing a family member.

Pray for Wesley long life so to unceasingly entertain my friend when she is sad, and I wasn't around for dinner.
Pray for 小白 to rest in peace, and Kar Sang to overcome the emotion very soon.

how to LoVe a Dog
=DeN=

hidden story

When I was young, I remember that my father has a rug,
It was quite a big piece of it, beige-ish, with green and black pattern.
I do not have much memory with that rug.

Lately I am planning to re furnish my room,
trying to remove the King size bed my parents got it when they first get married.
The mattress was badly wet last few months as the burglar broke the roof and follow by the downpour next day.
So I was thinking to get a rug or nice carpet to fill the long un expose area under the bed.
Past Wednesday, I went to IKEA with Cher Ru, wanting to check out the prices for the furniture and rug.
Oh My God the rug was so dear that I can in fact get a queen size mattress,
suddenly this old piece of my dad's rug flash through my mind.

After I went home, I tried to search in to the cabinet, and can't seems to locate the rug.
I ask mummy, she can't really remember either we gave it to Auntie Lyna (dad's sis) or whoever and in the end like its given to some else. But its definitely not at home now.

I called grandma today, hoping to track the long lost rug. Mama said its not at their home.

I call Rachel, and Rachel barely can recall, but she was saying something like it was abandon in the old house in Bidor or was thrown some where...

I email Auntie Lyna,

姑姐，

Do you remember that my dad has a rug like beige and green color one?


欣

• Ya ., Where is it now?

Maybe throw already, haih...
U still remember that ka?
When did he bought it?

• Hand made from his ex girlfriend

sure boh, that one quite big a piece wei..

• why throw it away it took 1 year to finish and I am the designer

My heart felt a little tear when I read this, and it's shrinking smaller and smaller...
I hope I can find back this piece of His-Story.

trace
=DeN=

Funeral

Have you ever been planing yours?
I was out with CheRu and Sandra last night,
instead of planning our wedding, CheR and I were actually visualizing our funeral.

She wants a happy funeral, music play from her ipod, including Coldplay Yellow.
White roses, white coffin (not necessarily to be dear),
and she demands for alcohol. ( don't talk to alcoholic)

Ya, mine as well in the other hand, doesn't really matter the color of my coffin,
flower to me is kinda a vain, but yeah for a function like this, you should at least get me some nice white lily, even jasmine will be good, I like the fragrance (while fresh).
what I am looking forward will be the content of D day.
If possible play some jazz,
I want all the people I care and care about me there...
Get together and talk about me...
Tell the rest about how am I am to you...
I make CheRu in my list if we'll still be close for the next 10 fine years...
Jasmine is totally can't run from this...
I think Chang Chew will have a lot of thing to tell...( my hair style evolution )
In fact, you may register your name here.
Let me know what will you remember me the most...
What will you miss the most out of me...my laughter...I know...
Share with me, all the delightful moment I might has forgotten...
I will be sitting at the corner, listening and enjoying all this flash back...

looking forward pulak
=DeN=

Disturbed

I understand the ground of me not to add everyone who requested to befriended Facebook is actually a wise move, its a mutual thing.
Not only I do not want to get involve too much in your life and vice verse.
I am afraid I know you too much and too transparent to me and vice verse.

I am really disturb emotionally...
I am too coward to get to know one further...
I always got the wrong one...

not even to take the 1st step
=DeN=

My hair

Recently I got a hair cut, you all knew it right.
What you might not know is that,
( me personally was unaware of as well)
This is actually the same as how I looked like 11 years ago,
when I was in my primary 6.
Thank for Chang Chew to remind us about that.
Good to have old friend around.

I LoVe you guys
=DeN=

UntiL then...GooD ByE

The Show!! by Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but i don't know why

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
Cause its to much, yea its alot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool, out of love
Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tride, but i don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spot light
The people follow the signs
And sicronise in time

It's a joke, no body knows
They got a ticket to the show
Yea

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tried, but i don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone
I've tride, but i don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show(x2)

I want my money back(x3)

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back(x3)

*My reader probably expecting this to be post here.
I know, not creative at aLL.
UntiL I learn how to post a youtube clip here, good bye...

I have lost my connection with my fountain of inspiration,
I have nothing new or fresh or fishy for the moment,
my life is just going a bit of down stream,
but it will be fine.
I am recovering...
UntiL i come back...good bye

let the music heal my soul
=DeN=

STOP!

I tell you what! No one is going to take control of my life.
Don't try to manipulate my decision.
My peace of mind has been perished.
I felt very disturb, all I ask for is to be alone.
Live my life, walk my way out.
I still love the world,
all I need is just some space to breath.

STOP trying ruin my day, like every single day.
STOP disturbing me with my un-will.
It was totally ridiculous to have me put through here.

Too much of negativity,
I think I need a massage,
to release some bad chi.

FreeSpirit
=DeN=

here

I think some of them take drug.
Is it ganja that make your eye red after you take it?
and people usually don't take it in the morning?

OMG
=DeN=

We BloG

Do you agree that,
when we are lonely,
we feel more emotional,
that trigger a lot of thinking,
and we do not have anyone to talk to,
as we are lonely,
so we flip up the laptop,
log in here,
and blah bla bla bla blah..
we talk about
Mother la,
Father la,
lover la,
music la,
movie la,
you la, me la
life la,
future la,
See, so many =la=
So the conclusions are
Loneliness is the fountain of inspiration
&
Jasmine and I are both experiencing the emotion,
now.

Hachion!
=DeN=