Dear friend

In fact, my wish has come true...
but that's not the point and again I miss the mark...
Anyway...
Lately I heard a few friends have lost their parents...
I can feel the pain,
even though I am just glancing at the picture, reading the line...
thinking of that can kill me...
I tear in my heart every single time...

I know you must have heard about 10 thousand times from your friends, your love one asking you to be STRONG and TOUGH
Dear friend, I'm here to tell you, you have aLL the reasons to be not strong,
to be weak and cry all night, cry after you waking up from a dream of seeing them,
cry whenever you heard the word s/he said to you once,
cry whenever you walk past the memory lane...
Cry whenever you imagine they will not appear in your wedding portrait,
they will not be there to witness your future...
You have all the reason...

So you do not need pretend to be tough,
you need LoVe and care...
I will say TIME will cure the pain...though it'll take very long...
Take Care...

in memory
=DeN=

hidden story

When I was young, I remember that my father has a rug,
It was quite a big piece of it, beige-ish, with green and black pattern.
I do not have much memory with that rug.

Lately I am planning to re furnish my room,
trying to remove the King size bed my parents got it when they first get married.
The mattress was badly wet last few months as the burglar broke the roof and follow by the downpour next day.
So I was thinking to get a rug or nice carpet to fill the long un expose area under the bed.
Past Wednesday, I went to IKEA with Cher Ru, wanting to check out the prices for the furniture and rug.
Oh My God the rug was so dear that I can in fact get a queen size mattress,
suddenly this old piece of my dad's rug flash through my mind.

After I went home, I tried to search in to the cabinet, and can't seems to locate the rug.
I ask mummy, she can't really remember either we gave it to Auntie Lyna (dad's sis) or whoever and in the end like its given to some else. But its definitely not at home now.

I called grandma today, hoping to track the long lost rug. Mama said its not at their home.

I call Rachel, and Rachel barely can recall, but she was saying something like it was abandon in the old house in Bidor or was thrown some where...

I email Auntie Lyna,

姑姐，

Do you remember that my dad has a rug like beige and green color one?


欣

• Ya ., Where is it now?

Maybe throw already, haih...
U still remember that ka?
When did he bought it?

• Hand made from his ex girlfriend

sure boh, that one quite big a piece wei..

• why throw it away it took 1 year to finish and I am the designer

My heart felt a little tear when I read this, and it's shrinking smaller and smaller...
I hope I can find back this piece of His-Story.

trace
=DeN=

One of the Chienese Valentine

According to lunar calender, today is the 7th of the 7th month, which we acknowledge it as 七夕, I would said what a romantic word. Today is one of the few Chinese Valentine Day, apart from the last day of Chinese New Year, Chap Gor Mei.

As I am already fond of the number 7, I already like this day. As much as I like it, just as I have it embroiled in my heart now.

Four years ago, around this time...
Father might has just breath his last breath...

In this memorable day, I wish he would be proud of what I am doing today.
aLx said he will...
I choose to believe him...

I think I need a HuG.

I LoVe you, papa
=DeN=

I am sorry

I am sorry if I had make this home unpleasant to stay.
Believe me this is the last thing I want to do here.

Sellfish?
=DeN=

OMG= Oh My GrandMa

I felt really bad, I so wanted to go to grandma'a place today. So I did ask J yesterday to do me a favour, as I do not have leg ( means I have no transport). She rejected saying grandma's place is very far. We staying in Taman Putra and they in Mahkota Cheras. Near @ Far are very subjective
measurement. We used to stay in Bidor and Grandma stays in KL. Which one is further far???

I went down for breakfast and came up again, J told me, my phone rang, as I did not save all my phone book's contact into my new phone. Here it was a stranger's number. I call back, and I heard the warmest voice in the world. My heart melted. She misses me, I knew it. And she knows the time right to call me.

She ask if I will come back on the 1st of January, as this coming Chinese New Year, she will be going back to Bidor, most probably can't have reunion dinner with us. My heart was like drop to the tummy. I miss you too. OMG.

Uncle George

Uncle George is one of my mum's cousin brother, whom they grew up together i guess. He was migrated to New Zealand the year I was born, so I never met him before. I heard of him a lot from my mum, his son and so on. He did came back to visit mum and us, 10 years ago to SOON SOON the bah kut teh cum coffee shop cum restaurant we used to have there then, I can't remember why on earth I was not there. So I like miss the golden chance in 10 years. After that visit, Rachel did have some mail contacting with Uncle George's son, Jack, whom he now called JT. (like JT. my friend in Ohio, I miss that kid)

Since I recently fond of knowing more about New Zealand, I figure that I have an uncle there. So as I found Jaslyn Tan's (another one of my many cousin sisters who is now in Australia) Facebook, I accidentaly or shall I say detective-fully, success to find a suspected Tan's family dude. Which is pretty good looking. So I send him a message like...wait let me copy it down here

Liew Cheng Yan

October 5 at 3:17am

It might sound weired a little, but I wonder will u be my cousin...
Are u Uncle George's son?

Jack Tan

October 5 at 7:00pm

hihi yes im george tan's son ?

So we kinda 相认 but he seems a little cool, at the end he said he is not so sure about family connection. Poor him. I wonder if he know Chinese. He did tell uncle George about our message, apparently Uncle George can't remember my dad's surname. That he denied me. One month later Uncle George added me in his FaceBook. He wrote me walls. I told him I never met him before, but he insist that 10 years ago he saw me in the bah kut teh shop. But sorry, I wasn't there. He then write me a message which let me know more about him. He is one funny uncle. This is so cool, like you meet a distant relative or a relative from far land that you never meet before, its interesting, isn't it.

His message for me in FB:

George Tan

November 14 at 5:08pm

Bk in 1967-68 I was in Methodist Boys School in Dato Kramat Road doing my HSC.board in somewhere 1/2 way to KeklokSi on Ayer Itam road for only $60-00 a mth including 3 meals a day....thats lot in those days.

I did not went to Uni immediately, instead went to work. to earn $$$$.

I did some corresponding studies, when I was A Country Manager for Oral-B, Dr Westin 1980.I then 2 summers bk in 81-82 @ Syracuse University in NY , USA to complete my Graduate Studies in B.Com majoring in Marketing.

Migrated to NZ in 1986.

Worked as A senior Bank Manager for an Australian Westpac Bank, left and was appointed by the Minister of Education of nZ as a Director for Auckland University of Technology(AUT Uni)...thats where JT graduated in 2001 after 5 yrs with B. Eng double in Electronic Communicatiobs and Computer Systems and a double in Grad. Dip; In Business...International Business Management& International Human Resources.

I retired from all directorships since 2003 after 4 heart attacks since 1997. The retirement age in NZ is 65 yrs old. I'm only 60yrs old I therefore don't qulify for a weekly pesion...Uncle very poor lah.
I grow my own vegs; to survies....hehe...organic ones.(hobbies)
I grow, chives,sping oniouns, green & snow peas, bitter melon(fukua), round beans(kuei tau), long beans(taukok)-2 types, canadian yam (wutau), lemon grass, assamlasak leaves, 2 lemon plats, choysums, kailan, kaichoy....flowers...beau roses.

Planting just my hobbies...most of my friendsjust come and harvest them for free lah...too much...we can't consume them all.
I'm a RETIRED FATHER CHRISMASS...hehe. The cost of planting and daily taking care of all my vegs; and flowers keeping me alive lah with all the fresh NZ air.

Don't worry, I m OOOKKK now, after stopping smoking, sleeping early...@ 8-30pm every night; wakes up @ 4-30am, ...read all news on the net...than @ 6 pm wlks 3km with my pet Golden Labrador 4 yrs old dog.

We in the south of Equater are having Summers from Dec to feb; we r now 5 hrs ahead of M'sia. but will revered bk to 4 hrs during the Winter mths from April to Sept..thats went JT go snow bording every weekends.
summers he plas Hockey and Golf.

Yan, after u graduated, try get a job related to yr studies.
While working I suggest u continue further edu inprobably international business, tourism, hotel management.
reasons being its anadded advantage to all yr languages majors...a supplement to advance yr career.
Many students in NZ @ AUT with language majors continue such majors to advance in life.

Uncle hope u do so.


Uncle Geo Geo

He address himself as Uncle Geo Geo, this is cute.

Uncle George,
Let's talk Rugby and Dunedin.