reminder

SOME1 HAVEN'T BLOG FOR 2 WEEKS AND MORE ALREADY....

update pls
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So many times I gave up.
I tell myself, I'll leave, I have done all I could.
And if I am not, I'll throw my tantrum right in to your face,
say that I don't care anymore.
It's your life friend, no matter how much one would like to help you,
you are still the key of your own heart.

So many times I feel like slapping you to wake you up from all
those bs philosophy you have got to defense.
So many times I feel like bombing you with sarcastic word.
I hold back, I speak to myself, those line.
I digest it, I ask God, and It shouldn't be the way.

It should be mere LoVe.
Thus I am still here, sitting next to you.

I LoVe Friend, please LoVe yourself too
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When dad passed away, it was like 5 years ago,
I wrote a lot about him, about how much I miss him.
Every time when I read back those words, they never fail to make me tears.

And a year passed, I was preparing for the student exchange program,
It never seems so easy, not as what you'll said after you see me return.
That time round, I decided not to write any discourage people or word in my blog.
Every time when I felt weak, I prayed, I prayed for financial aid, I pray for faith,
I pray for God to lead me through, as He'll have a plan for me.
So you'll never find a post about my journey of preparing my student exchange program.

And years passed again...
As you grow, you know better how to control the emotions.
Being emotionless is extremely sad,
at least you ought to know who or what will worth a sleepless night.

You know what friend, I am glad that you are experiencing the feeling now.
Cause it will accomplish you as a human, help you along your life.
Experience make you Grow.

hows the coffee?
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Thank You

I am glad that I always met good friend.
First I thanked God about granting me all these nice people around me.

Tan Gini, If only you or your friend happen to search your name on google...
you might find this post...

You are always a mr Nice Guy.
I think you are just one fabulous person.
To me you are always a cute little (not in size) banana brother.
Your smart, cheerful, playful, helpful-ness made you such a charming friend.
You have all the things people will envy of...

Being a Japanese and Malaysian Chinese mixed, did not made you a weird snob...
I adore you as a humble person...as I should learn to be one and be pleasant in God's eye...

By showing my gratitude to you for being there,
STRETCHING your helping hand, every single time...

I really wish that if there is a chance that I am going to get marry and have a son...
I want to breed him as a gentleman like you.

thx for all the concern and ya, I'm still single after all these years...sigh
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Dear friend

In fact, my wish has come true...
but that's not the point and again I miss the mark...
Anyway...
Lately I heard a few friends have lost their parents...
I can feel the pain,
even though I am just glancing at the picture, reading the line...
thinking of that can kill me...
I tear in my heart every single time...

I know you must have heard about 10 thousand times from your friends, your love one asking you to be STRONG and TOUGH
Dear friend, I'm here to tell you, you have aLL the reasons to be not strong,
to be weak and cry all night, cry after you waking up from a dream of seeing them,
cry whenever you heard the word s/he said to you once,
cry whenever you walk past the memory lane...
Cry whenever you imagine they will not appear in your wedding portrait,
they will not be there to witness your future...
You have all the reason...

So you do not need pretend to be tough,
you need LoVe and care...
I will say TIME will cure the pain...though it'll take very long...
Take Care...

in memory
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Funeral

Have you ever been planing yours?
I was out with CheRu and Sandra last night,
instead of planning our wedding, CheR and I were actually visualizing our funeral.

She wants a happy funeral, music play from her ipod, including Coldplay Yellow.
White roses, white coffin (not necessarily to be dear),
and she demands for alcohol. ( don't talk to alcoholic)

Ya, mine as well in the other hand, doesn't really matter the color of my coffin,
flower to me is kinda a vain, but yeah for a function like this, you should at least get me some nice white lily, even jasmine will be good, I like the fragrance (while fresh).
what I am looking forward will be the content of D day.
If possible play some jazz,
I want all the people I care and care about me there...
Get together and talk about me...
Tell the rest about how am I am to you...
I make CheRu in my list if we'll still be close for the next 10 fine years...
Jasmine is totally can't run from this...
I think Chang Chew will have a lot of thing to tell...( my hair style evolution )
In fact, you may register your name here.
Let me know what will you remember me the most...
What will you miss the most out of me...my laughter...I know...
Share with me, all the delightful moment I might has forgotten...
I will be sitting at the corner, listening and enjoying all this flash back...

looking forward pulak
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The excitement of a Kei Ma

She decided to keep the baby. As one of her best friend, I choose not to be a rational friend. I am excited to be one of the baby's many races Kei Ma. I just want to be a supportive friend. I LoVe you, and will always do...
May God bLess you and the baby.


Stand by you
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男人的用处

男人的用处之一：
发生车祸时，男人可以站出来，替你“讲数”。
你大可以一言不发，呆在一旁， 看他讲道理。
然后上车后，他有感而发的说："幸亏今天有个男人在车上."
我也这般想，要是我一人，在黑漆漆的晚上，繁忙的交通圈旁，
可能我已经把全副身家掏出来，赔给那个锡克人叔叔了。

谢谢你撒姆尔
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You are not aLone

Dear J nG
After listening to your story, I have a very strong feeling towards this phrase,
"You are not aLone" or " I'm not alone".

As Chinese proverbs said, "家家有本难念的经". I do believe that it's all the hardship we undergone that made us who we are today. We should be grateful and glad that we were brought up this way with all the life experiences others might not have.

We are healthy, capable to earn a living, not so descendant. Our background has leave a print on us. Look at you and me, we are not too bad, and indeed, we were very good person, with bright future, living happier life than many others.

When ever I met a weirdo, I will try not to put any judgment but think that, they might have come from an indifferent family background or have a significant past. This, I'll show empathy.
We all have a past, please not be ashamed of it.

Be grateful that your mum and dad has nurture you this big, thus though you are not loaded, at least you have story to tell your kids, and please bring them up well in the future.

aLL the best friend.
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Happy Birthday

First of all, I should address my heart felt apologize, as I’d disappeared for some 4 long weeks without any notice before hand, nor in between.

Yes, modem at home was broken on a thunder rainy day. Well, the problem is yet to be fix till now.

So, Mc D was one of the solution or Jun Ng’s Digi Broadband in the office.

It was my 23^rd birthday last Saturday; the least expecting surprise party came his way. I am not a fan of those, as I thought my family is secretly planning for a BBQ party as I wished but end up blown due to tight budget.

I went to work at 6am and come back at around 3.30pm, I was so tired, I lie flat on the bed till 7pm, and then Kuan drag me to Carefour, thus to spare time for Rachel and the Bidor gang to do their job. We were in the hypermarket for like hour or more.

On the way home, as we were near the home gate, I saw a Pizza Hut delivery man left. I was thinking, so our dinner tonight is certain now. Rac ordered pizza. Wait a minute here, the house is all dark, nobody was there. How can Rac order pizza and left the house empty? I should have stopped the pizza man before he left.

I open the gate, the the metal and wooden door, just when I confirmed that the alarm is not set…

“Happy Birthday to you….” Cha is holding the Chocolate Indulgence with candle from Bidor as it written, and the representative from 5 Raya 2003, Chang Chew the planner, Wah sifut, Sook Teng, Shyan Ling and Chiew. Oh my God. I never thought it was them. Thank you so much, people. It was almost the best surprise party I ever have. Life is so good with friends around.

p/s: Though the cake was a little bit cacat, but I really appreciate the LoVe and friendship behind it.

LoVe yaLL

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Dedication

SPECIAL THANKS TO

MR aLex TAN JUN HOE

FOR KINDLY DOWNLOAD

&

send m3

The Show-Lenka


I am EnJoYinG it to the MaX here!

ありがとうなあ

stuck

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Tang Soon Yew

Tang Soon Yew, ah Yow we call him. One of my brotherhood back in Bidor.
We know each other since we were in primary school.
He was once the school top 3 student when we were in standard 4 and 5.
He told me it was because during that time, he thinks people who scores well in the exam
seems to be very cool, so he wants to be like them too. So there.
Later we grew older, like most of the Bidor boy, you will start hanging out at the basket ball court.
He then find the basket ball player very cool, so he started his journey in excelling in this sports.
He shoot with his left hand, I remember. I become a fan of this game.
I still remember he lend me his MVP情人, he bought the original and got me addicted.
I was a sport idiot there then, he tells me a lot of funny and interesting stories in the court. I got to know a lot of new faces, hilarious tale.
He has a very caring mum, funny grandma and dad that play badmintion with mine.
Small town, theres that.

We went to the same high school. After the graduation, we all have different path. I can hardly catch up with them. But whenever we meet, the never ending jokes still go on. I came across his blog not very long ago. I was surprise that he writes too. I am happy to know that, he is doing well. You know, when you work over the sea, people will have the impression that you are doing good. So I just want to make a conclusion that you are doing well there.

Today, from my link to his blog, I read his most recent update. Tears can't help dropping from the cheek. He is going to end his 6 years relationship with an engagement ring.
I am so proud of him that he actually take this BIG step in his life.
You have the gut to give the commitment, you are the MAN, wei..
I am so looking forward for your wedding...don't left me out then...

Proud of you
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=DeN's=@=DeN=

Lately job interview has become a very hot topic, among the pre-graduate.
If you attend those workshop, the speaker will tell you, you have to sell yourself during interview.
So YOU are your product.
I am proud of myself as well as my product.

Not only I like to be featured, especially under sharp pen@cool friend@ good writer=JeanJean
I felt important, every time I was mention by her...in the blog...
I was like a shining star...I appreciate each and every word...
and most of all I treasure the memory and the friendship we share.

As I said "not only" means, other than me myself are being featured, my product =DeN's=
is being more widely read.
I have got secret reader from Bristol, London...if you know who you are, please register yourself.
Then I have reader from Central Distric,Hong Kong China, which I'd found out whom he was-Tomy my HK FB friend. and reader from TaiChung, Taiwan which turn out to be my primary school's classmate- Soon Yew( if you are interested he blog too)
I once had an Singaporean mystery reader.
I am very grateful to have all of you here, thousand TQ...of course not forgetting, widest range reader from Batu Uban, Penang.
Butterworth&Bkt Mertajam, Penang@Ampang, KL@JB, Johor...
I don't need a lot of customer to buy me, all I need are reader who are really care to read about my life, enjoy my writing, appreciate my sharing and laugh at my jokes...

Shining Star
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Bukit Hijau

[22] Ever been on a last minute vacation?
No. I can never do that. Everything needs a plan.

To explain to this Q&A the other day on 300-200
I would like to deny this answer as this was not my answer but Tiff's,
cause I accidentally missed this one.

I have been to some when I was younger,
dad is always a last minute trip traveler,
Mum is used to that.
I like that feeling too.

Today, I message Tai Lo when I was in church, I want to go to check out the food fair in PISA.
I ask if he has any plan, he reply that Chin Teng is inviting them to go to there too.
So I join them, LAST MINUTE. Six of us miraculously fit in ABU- Kok Loon's car.

We went there and were all a little disappointed, but we got ourselves 3 Sunday Star with 3 free magazine each set. Since we can't find real food there, we make a decision in the end to have lunch in Old Town, I wish I remember the name of the place, that one near to the KFC, me and Jas used to makan mid9 when Sg 2 one has not start operating 24 hours.

We spend like an hour or more there, reading papers, magazines, chatting, eating, drinking and most importantly discussing where to spend the rest of the day.
Either we have SUPER SAVER SUNDAY PLAN or SUPER SPENDING SUNDAY PLAN.
Either way Pei En was expecting a SPLENDID SUNDAY which she could go back to office tomorrow and tell her colleague that how awesome her weekend was.
After ages of meeting and severals suggestion, we had ban fishing, gaming, movie, Borders and not fishing.
WE HAVE GOT AN CONCLUSION!!!

We are heading to BUKIT HIJAU, Kedah.
Everyone get so excited. One by one we went home to get ready and just before we departing, Penang was like raining cats and dogs. We are still very optimist until we reach the bridge.
It does not seems positive and our Master of Tourism Malaysia-Chin Teng too started to worry.

As we follow his instruction, we took the right turn on the 5th traffic light.
The sky in Bukit Hijau is gratefully bright.
I won't say it sunny as apparently there were rain just before.
After 1hour and a half. WE ARE HERE!!!
Bukit Hijau the well known recreation water fall. I was long for a nature retreat.
This is the time. The water is icy cold. and I learn a new term today.
Hypothermia- click click click.
Chin Teng was all along the way flu...
Kok Loon got his lips' colour change to light purple...
Thus got chase after to leave the pool by the mother duck...oops...

Did not manage to eat oo bui-yam rice in Chai Leng's Park, we end up eating at this place call Friendship Garden.
Reach home around 10 something...
Thx for a contented weekend...
These are the people who treat me real good...

Headache-over excited
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accepting

In the end of the day, aLL you need is just a companion.
You wish that when you come home, there are someone to talk to, someone to share the meal.
You wish that when its holiday, there are someone you like to travel with.
To share joy, to shed tears
to be the ears, the hand, the heart warmer
You think sexual satisfaction is not one crucial need,
to fill the vacant of a lonely soul,
you need another soul
it can be both gender or trans-gender
I am accepting rEis's definition,
They LoVe someone because of the person, not the gender.

accepting
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Do you need some amusement?

Has it been a long day?
Dear friend, this is a breath taking breathing lesson.
Enjoy the clip.

Thx 4 being here
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If I don't have a backgroud

When we befriended someone. The progression are similar.
We probably meet by face or not.
Even if its internet friend, we will most likely ask for a picture.
So outlook goes first.
Name-age-occupation-origin-former school-major-family member...
and the list go on.
What if I don't have a background?
Why not we start knowing someone from some other perspective?
Why would we ask all these questions? and judge them from their background.
We analyze them from the age, the occupation, the origin, the school they went to....and so on.
I used to think that's the way it should be.
Just a few days ago, I think about it for once.
I realize that this is unfair, not only to the friend we befriend,
it affects our judgment towards someone too.
We might have just give someone up, before we actually know them real.
Why is one's age so important? I can't get the point.
Maybe the next time when I get to know a new friend.
I would rather talk about hobbies, favourite food, sports, books and movies.
Things that can be share, things that really symbolize who you are.
Mum always said that You are What You Eat,
hence its true that your favourite food might be best to manifest who you are.

Get weLL
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Thank Q

Having friends around is my most treasure assets. I know after all the bad day, when I don't want to be alone at home, facing only the computer screen,
I turn around you'll always be my shelter.
With no much of a word, I felt secure and loved. You all never fail to blow my blue off.
Sharing is caring, Sus's said. I'm such a pampered baby friend.

In this very pok kai, hak zai, dum, and whatever bad luck it came after me of dark period.
I really want to deliver my heart felt gratitude to,
Susilla, Tirawud, Jasmine, Simon, rEis, Bernatt, aLex, Shala...
for the companion, sharing, present, care, $, food, love,
and most of all thousand thanks for being there for me when I need you the most...

Lots of from the bottom of my heart....

Friendship Banzai!!!
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Hey Dear...

"Hey DeaR...bla bla bla"
So your friend thought you are talking to your boyfriend.
I was surprise by my colleague Cloey that after I hang my phone today, Cloey looking at me and ask curiously: " who are you talking to? Boyfriend a?"
Do we really sound that intimate?
What's wrong with them? So envy of us...lol

in LoVe with Jas
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