If you have seen me lately, you know my life is in a big mess, my nest is in a big mess, my final year project is in a big mess, I have to surrender and admit that I am in a deep big shit
-" life sucks" quote Jaya beside me.
I have to get my things all pack up today and move my ass off that room in N Paark,
parasite in some anybody's room, I mean i still don't know where to...
interview with aLtera which I have not prepare the resume and Japanese writing they wanted,
Finish my fucking FYP which keep procrastinate itself week after week
Do my last interpretation test on Wednesday?/Thursday?
Grab some clothing for the BATI dinner before Friday, the DAY
Attend the grooming RETRO night
Drive back to KL the very next day, unload all the 4 years stuffs I keep here,
More interview, with Japan Embassy-Monday, JAC-Tuesday
Drive back to return the car to Bidor,
catch a bus back to KL...
WHAT THE FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!
This is not the point, I am sorry because I got a bad news from Miaw Ling.
She never send me a written mail, she did yesterday. I guess she felt very helpless now,
the grandma is in critical condition, once a brain cancer survival, got her second attack several years after that.
The doctor is being very pessimist, they had send her home, counting days...
Suddenly I felt so small, that there are so little that I can do.
I reply her message, hopefully I can pay her a visit on Saturday before I go back to KL.
Jasmine, the other day's outing was not very ideal for me as well. I was darn fuck up with all the stacked up task. But when you sms me, I know that you have been missing me a lot, so I decided to go out with you. Sorry I was not being a caring enough friend there then. I wish I can compensate some time later. I am really BUSY right now, struggling to catch a breath, as if I am going to drown in to deep sea...
Samuel call me yesterday, I gave up a 1.5k 3 days job....I am too busy...
I can hear the dripping of blood in my heart...
oh baby$$$, not thaat mummy don't want you...
but...
I am sorry, I really can't help
*got to meet Madelyn before I leave
I feel blue
=DeN=
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
一度.秋天童话
30
Sep 2007@中部大学，名古屋
打开窗，秋天的风和雨
闭上眼睛我又在想，到底是怎么把自己“远距传物”到这里来。
有好多的事情我没记下来。唯恐回首一时，一再陷入回忆的黑洞里，不能自拔。
打开窗，好喜欢好喜欢这种感觉。一种异乡的惆怅美，一种酷酷的冷。
我拉开抽屉，把感觉都藏在里面。
当我离开这房间的时候，它也会一直的留在这里。回忆却又在字里行间涌流出来了。我没有心理准备，我会受得了吗？我没有头绪。
我努力的珍惜每一份每一秒。努力的为自己留在这片土地上的青春拚命的彩色。一点也不想留白。就连多睡一分钟也觉得有太浪费了。一呼一吸变得非常认真，因为我想认真地活着。
年轻真好，生命总是积极的，未来也是乐观的。。。满脑子里都是充满积极，乐观，正面的事情。现在啊，我觉得我的生活真的浪漫的不行了。虽说认真，认真的还真的带点浪漫，一个人的浪漫。所谓浪漫嘛-就是没钱也很快乐。
青春万岁不是很好吗？生活浪漫不是很乐观吗？
朋友啊，爱我的人啊，我会好好的。。。等我活着回来吧！
忆故=DeN=
Friday, March 27, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
I will be off
I will be taking off to Ipoh tomorrow 3:00pm after LHP456 interview session with Pn. Zuraidah.
Its time for Ching Meng. Dad always tell us that this day is more important than Chinese New Year.
Its been so long since I visit dad's. I miss him, mostly when I was thinking that he can't witness my graduation.
Just came back from Jusco, simply grab some sweets for the kids tomorrow. Got 2 packs of mash mallow, lot 100 for them, dry kiwi and Clorects for myself. Japanese toothbrush for mum...
Guess that's all... now guess how much all this cost?
almost RM20. =DIU...7 gui=
Ticket back to Ipoh, another RM20. But I am excited though.
ONE more major assignment to go...
gambare, women
Bob the builder...YES WE CAN!!!
=DeN=
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Tang Soon Yew
Tang Soon Yew, ah Yow we call him. One of my brotherhood back in Bidor.
We know each other since we were in primary school.
He was once the school top 3 student when we were in standard 4 and 5.
He told me it was because during that time, he thinks people who scores well in the exam
seems to be very cool, so he wants to be like them too. So there.
Later we grew older, like most of the Bidor boy, you will start hanging out at the basket ball court.
He then find the basket ball player very cool, so he started his journey in excelling in this sports.
He shoot with his left hand, I remember. I become a fan of this game.
I still remember he lend me his MVP情人, he bought the original and got me addicted.
I was a sport idiot there then, he tells me a lot of funny and interesting stories in the court. I got to know a lot of new faces, hilarious tale.
He has a very caring mum, funny grandma and dad that play badmintion with mine.
Small town, theres that.
We went to the same high school. After the graduation, we all have different path. I can hardly catch up with them. But whenever we meet, the never ending jokes still go on. I came across his blog not very long ago. I was surprise that he writes too. I am happy to know that, he is doing well. You know, when you work over the sea, people will have the impression that you are doing good. So I just want to make a conclusion that you are doing well there.
Today, from my link to his blog, I read his most recent update. Tears can't help dropping from the cheek. He is going to end his 6 years relationship with an engagement ring.
I am so proud of him that he actually take this BIG step in his life.
You have the gut to give the commitment, you are the MAN, wei..
I am so looking forward for your wedding...don't left me out then...
Proud of you
=DeN=
We know each other since we were in primary school.
He was once the school top 3 student when we were in standard 4 and 5.
He told me it was because during that time, he thinks people who scores well in the exam
seems to be very cool, so he wants to be like them too. So there.
Later we grew older, like most of the Bidor boy, you will start hanging out at the basket ball court.
He then find the basket ball player very cool, so he started his journey in excelling in this sports.
He shoot with his left hand, I remember. I become a fan of this game.
I still remember he lend me his MVP情人, he bought the original and got me addicted.
I was a sport idiot there then, he tells me a lot of funny and interesting stories in the court. I got to know a lot of new faces, hilarious tale.
He has a very caring mum, funny grandma and dad that play badmintion with mine.
Small town, theres that.
We went to the same high school. After the graduation, we all have different path. I can hardly catch up with them. But whenever we meet, the never ending jokes still go on. I came across his blog not very long ago. I was surprise that he writes too. I am happy to know that, he is doing well. You know, when you work over the sea, people will have the impression that you are doing good. So I just want to make a conclusion that you are doing well there.
Today, from my link to his blog, I read his most recent update. Tears can't help dropping from the cheek. He is going to end his 6 years relationship with an engagement ring.
I am so proud of him that he actually take this BIG step in his life.
You have the gut to give the commitment, you are the MAN, wei..
I am so looking forward for your wedding...don't left me out then...
Proud of you
=DeN=
Monday, March 23, 2009
Are you still thinking about your ex?
Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.
Nuh uh...aLx, what do you think?
maybe its not just merely my ex (the official), but with my ex-ES
and serious crush...
which CRUSHED my heart...
yeah...
Quite True there...
moving forward
=DeN=
Nuh uh...aLx, what do you think?
maybe its not just merely my ex (the official), but with my ex-ES
and serious crush...
which CRUSHED my heart...
yeah...
Quite True there...
moving forward
=DeN=
copy cat...QuiZ
Do this QuiZ
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. ( betulkah?) This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.Quite True
=DeN=
Saturday, March 21, 2009
I DUT!@#$%^&* YOU!!!
I was back to KL for a job on Thursday...
My house got fucking broke in twice in 2 days...
My house got fucking broke in twice in 2 days...
to be continue
=DeN=
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Name
I understand these might provoke some, but don't be...
It is just out of fun...and intuition...
So you have at least live in this world for 20 years or more,
if you are reading my blog.
You must have had a lot of friends sharing the same name,
how do you find these people with the same name?
Have you ever make some generalization and put a conclusion on them?
I have notice that people with the name Rachel
tend to be the eldest in the family
they are apparently bitchy, arrogant, snobbish.
Ego. Leo.
Kontrol emosi.
People with YAN are most of them plump,
gemuk la tu...
Share with me about yours...
I'm YAN
=DeN=
It is just out of fun...and intuition...
So you have at least live in this world for 20 years or more,
if you are reading my blog.
You must have had a lot of friends sharing the same name,
how do you find these people with the same name?
Have you ever make some generalization and put a conclusion on them?
I have notice that people with the name Rachel
tend to be the eldest in the family
they are apparently bitchy, arrogant, snobbish.
Ego. Leo.
Kontrol emosi.
People with YAN are most of them plump,
gemuk la tu...
Share with me about yours...
I'm YAN
=DeN=
=DeN's=@=DeN=
Lately job interview has become a very hot topic, among the pre-graduate.
If you attend those workshop, the speaker will tell you, you have to sell yourself during interview.
So YOU are your product.
I am proud of myself as well as my product.
Not only I like to be featured, especially under sharp pen@cool friend@ good writer=JeanJean
I felt important, every time I was mention by her...in the blog...
I was like a shining star...I appreciate each and every word...
and most of all I treasure the memory and the friendship we share.
As I said "not only" means, other than me myself are being featured, my product =DeN's=
is being more widely read.
I have got secret reader from Bristol, London...if you know who you are, please register yourself.
Then I have reader from Central Distric,Hong Kong China, which I'd found out whom he was-Tomy my HK FB friend. and reader from TaiChung, Taiwan which turn out to be my primary school's classmate- Soon Yew( if you are interested he blog too)
I once had an Singaporean mystery reader.
I am very grateful to have all of you here, thousand TQ...of course not forgetting, widest range reader from Batu Uban, Penang.
Butterworth&Bkt Mertajam, Penang@Ampang, KL@JB, Johor...
I don't need a lot of customer to buy me, all I need are reader who are really care to read about my life, enjoy my writing, appreciate my sharing and laugh at my jokes...
Shining Star
=DeN=
If you attend those workshop, the speaker will tell you, you have to sell yourself during interview.
So YOU are your product.
I am proud of myself as well as my product.
Not only I like to be featured, especially under sharp pen@cool friend@ good writer=JeanJean
I felt important, every time I was mention by her...in the blog...
I was like a shining star...I appreciate each and every word...
and most of all I treasure the memory and the friendship we share.
As I said "not only" means, other than me myself are being featured, my product =DeN's=
is being more widely read.
I have got secret reader from Bristol, London...if you know who you are, please register yourself.
Then I have reader from Central Distric,Hong Kong China, which I'd found out whom he was-Tomy my HK FB friend. and reader from TaiChung, Taiwan which turn out to be my primary school's classmate- Soon Yew( if you are interested he blog too)
I once had an Singaporean mystery reader.
I am very grateful to have all of you here, thousand TQ...of course not forgetting, widest range reader from Batu Uban, Penang.
Butterworth&Bkt Mertajam, Penang@Ampang, KL@JB, Johor...
I don't need a lot of customer to buy me, all I need are reader who are really care to read about my life, enjoy my writing, appreciate my sharing and laugh at my jokes...
Shining Star
=DeN=
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